Friday, August 14, 2015

Lessons Learned....Blessed be the name of the Lord...

I wrote this 3 months ago and have been waiting for the right time to post it. I have written quite a few short things about all that I have learned through this life trial. I am still learning and I still have to have an attitude check every once in a while. I am thankful for all that I have learned and how the Lord has molded me to be more like Him.

It's been two months (almost to the day) that we left our church (our job) and while in some ways it has been such a relief in other ways it has been stressful and downright hard. I am a planner and I like to have everything planned out. I have my 5year "plan" and my 10 year "plan" but sometimes God says, "That might be your plan but it's not MY plan for you!" I have learned so much about trusting God (see my last post) and I have also learned a lot about realizing that when things don't go the way I want or the way I *think* they should go God still loves me. I have been a believer since I was 5yrs old. Now, granted, my life with Christ has grown and changed over the years. There have been different challenges and they have made me more like Christ. I wish I could say that I always had the right attitude and I was always happy about my circumstances. But that would be a lie. It is hard and I feel like the last 2 months I have struggled more than ever and in that struggle I have grown more than ever.

Just this morning, I was reading an article that a lady wrote about losing her baby at 9 months pregnant. As I was reading her article, my stomach sank and I thought, Dear God, my body would not be able to physically take something like that happening to me. After what I have been through the last 6 months there is NO. WAY!! How is this woman doing it!?! As article went on the lady was saying that she rested in the book of Job and God let Satan take so much from Job, even all his children in 1 day! Say What?!?!? I have read Job and I knew that all that happened. The Lord used this article by a stranger and her sharing about resting in the Scriptures; to show me that my life is GOOD! God does love me always has and always will. The Lord cares about my family and has provided for us in the last few months in ways I never would have imagined!!

Oh Lord, Thank you for revealing to me Scriptures about a man that has such faith! I have my husband and my kids. The Lord could take so much more from me and I need to be like Job and rest in You, oh Lord!! No matter what comes my way, I will rest in the God who loves and who cares for me more than anyone else ever could! That is why I am here doing what I am doing. Lord, help my life circumstances be an encouragement to someone else, just like the lady in this article I read and like Job. Absolutely amazing and honorable!

There is so much to learn! Even things I have read many times before in the Scripture resinate with me differently when I am in different circumstances. Life isn't going to be easy as a believer in Christ but it is always rewarding!!

"Praise the Lord from whom all blessings flow!"
"The Lord gives and the Lord takes away, blessed be the name of the Lord!"

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Trust in the Lord

"Trust in the Lord" this phrase is used regularly in the Christian cirlces or the southern "Bible Belt", if you will. It is a phrase that has become oh so real to me over the past 6 months. The Lord has tested me to a point where I wondered if He really was testing me beyond that I could handle. He doesn't. He uses fire of sin and circumstances to refine us and make us more like Him! The past 6 months has been some serious heat over here refining me! We figured out in November of 2014 that Derek would probably be getting laid off from his job. You're probably thinking, "Wait?!? isn't your husband a youth pastor?" Yep! You're right! He is. The church took on a bit more than what they could handle financially. We started losing members and cash flow. We realized very quickly we didn't have much time. This was our full-time income (and really wasn't much). So here I was fretting because churches are pretty well known for taking ages and ages to hire to positions. We don't have time for that. We have to find something quickly! So the job search began! Things continued to go downhill financially at our church and we knew it was time to leave. We are leaving our full-time income and have nothing else! Oh my goodness!!! I realized (not quickly enough) through all of this that Trusting the the Lord....this is when it counts. I went through some pretty major anxiety and had to go to my doctor for nausea medicine. It was so bad I would have days where I could rarely eat 3 meals. At least one meal a day I was feeling so ill I couldn't eat. And in fact, there was a time (I'm not proud of) that I went 36 hours without eating a thing because I was so nauseated I knew it would not set well. It was dizzy, weak and ended up making myself eat!

Then it hit me! This time right NOW is when Trusting the Lord counts. I was thoroughly embarrassed that I had had such anxiety. What was I thinking. Of course, God knew that this would happen and of course, He is going to take care of us! Why am I so worried?!?

Because I'm human! That's why. Because I was (and still do at times) find my security in financial stability. Even though we didn't have much income. We had income. I knew that our mortgage would be paid and that we would have food on the table. Now that we have only a part-time income. I should be on the bathroom floor crying, getting sick,  and not eating, right?!? Well, praise the Lord! Im not.  The Lord has done such a work in my heart, to rely on Him! I am trusting in Him now, so that later when He shows us His plan that He has had for us all along, I can affirmingly say that I trusted Him! I can say that I trusted that He had a good plan for our family.  I don't know what that will look like and I don't know when we will see it. But what I do know. Is that I serve a good God. I serve a God that Loves me and loves my family more than I ever can! The phrase "Trust in the Lord" has taken on a whole new meaning to me over the past 6 months and I think it will forever mean more to than it ever has when I say or hear the phrase, "Trust in the Lord".

Thursday, January 1, 2015


I forgot to write my finishing post to P90X. We finished it right before Thanksgiving so I guess I just got busy with the holidays and forgot to post about finishing. It was one of the hardest but most rewarding things I have ever done! It is just over 90 days of workouts 6 days a week and each workout was about 1hr-1.5hrs. It took all of naptime, which probably actually helped me to lose weight because naptime is when I get into trouble. haha. Thats when I like to get snacks and veg on the couch watching my favorite TV show (this is when I would get in my chick flicks that Derek didn't want to watch with me!!! ;-) ) So anyway, when I replaced that with working out it helped my calorie intake a lot! I lost 13lbs and 5" total! It was pretty impressed with the loss that I experienced. It got me back to below highschool size and weight. I didn't realize that until I found some old pants at my parents house that were from high school and i realized they were too big! I have decided to start Insanity (another Beachbody workout). It is a little harder to be motivated with this workout since I have gotten to a comfortable weight. I think I will be motivated for the hubs!! He still has a little more weight he wants to lose. He has done sooo well! I have been so proud of him and how well he has done losing weight.

So...Here is a finished picture that Hubby and I took when we finished P90X!!! =)